Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Bye, Bye Streak

The streak has ended…28 weeks without a gain in weight. It was epic, I was really starting to think that I could get all the way down to my goal weight without showing a gain. It was unrealistic of me to think that I would be able to do that – but I was only 5 pounds away so it couldn’t be that unreasonable right. Well, today that streak came to a shrieking halt as I posted a ONE POUND GAIN on the scale at WW today. I was sort of expecting it based on what my own scale said but I still wasn’t prepared for the finality of it when she put that damn sticker in my book with +1 staring back at me.

I know what you are thinking – “Jen, get over yourself, you have lost 58.6 pounds in 29 weeks – this was bound to happen and you will bounce back this week.” And I will politely say – “You are right, it will be okay, I will move on and get back at it”. But I am just not sure if that is how I REALLY feel. I know that is how I am supposed to feel, but I am not sure that my head is actually there. Yet.

I am not writing this to get you all to comment and tell me how great I am (I appreciate those comments but this is not meant to be a plea for them). I really needed to get this out on “paper” so I can move on and get back to the task at hand. So thank you for obliging me.

I really did not think a one pound gain would send me in to a spin, but it has. Thankfully I had Missy to lean on immediately afterward – and her words were very comforting and supportive. My mom also had some nuggets of wisdom for me as well. The hardest conversation was with Rob. He called me to find out if I broke through the 60 pound mark today – I could tell he was excited and waiting for me to tell him the good news. I told him I gained and he could tell I was not happy about it. His immediate reaction was “that’s okay, you have not gained any weight since you started, you will get it next week for sure.” He sure does come through every now and again! And I am fortunate to have so many people in my corner rooting for me and reminding me how far I have come.

I have started to question my eating and whether or not I may be eating too little. I am working out pretty hard and there were a couple of days last week that I was so hungry but I didn’t have the points/calories to spare so I just drank water to satiate my stomach. But, after a little bit of research this afternoon on a running nutrition website I am thinking that I may not be properly fueling myself – especially on days that I am running. I am going to play a little bit with my food intake and exercise this week and see what I can come up with. I am not totally freaking out – just thinking that I may need to shake things up a little bit and get back to losing!

I am roughly 6 pounds away from my goal weight at WW – so mathematically speaking the losses are going to get tougher. But, for me I can see that there is still work to be done so posting a gain at this point in the game was very defeating. I am not going to let it derail me though. I am going to pick myself up, dust myself off and remind myself that I have lost 58.6 pounds and I have dropped 4 pant sizes in less than 6 months.

This is a new lifestyle for me and I need to figure out how to make it work with my life – this is not a diet – I will not ditch everything I have learned the minute I get to my goal. Again, thank you to each and every one of you for the love and support that you show me every day. It means so much to me!

Be well and happy friends!

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