Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Off and running...

Hello my people!  My people?  Okay, I certainly don't have people, but for those of you who keep coming back to check on me and/or leave your incredibly inspiring and thoughtful messages - THANK YOU! 
I second and triple guessed myself when making the decision to "out my blog" on Facebook a couple of months ago - I am so glad that I did not talk myself out of it!  The support and friendship that I have received through this blog and through my FB page have been so awesome and really have kept me going.  I don't want to quit and really hope that I don't ever get to that point in this journey when its so hard that I just don't want to do it anymore.  I am sure there will be days (I have had them already) when I don't want to care about what I am putting in my mouth or how many minutes I worked out that day.  But honestly, when I have those days I think about this place and the people that are supporting me, walking the same journey and it reminds me of why I am doing this in the first place.  It's for me - I want to be healthy, I want to live a long life with my husband, kids, friends and family! 

So, on to the exciting stuff of the week!  I had my weekly weigh in today - today marked the completion of 16 weeks at Weight Watchers.  I got a little charm to put on my WW key chain to mark the occasion.  They call the 16 week mark at WW the "Stay and Succeed" award.  I have definitely stayed and I have most certainly succeeded.  There is much more work to be done, but I would be remiss to not stop and pat myself on the back for what I have accomplished thus far.  *pats self on back*
This week I lost another 2.2 pounds - which brings the grand total for 16 weeks to 38.4 pounds.  I am more than half way to my goal weight - I would still like to lose about 25 more pounds to really be at a place where I am comfortable with my physical health.  That would put me at a size that I have not been in, I don't even know how long.  Its been a REALLY long time!  I can recall back in high school and my first couple quarters at college and thinking about how FAT I thought I was!  I just saw some pics recently from my senior year of HS and freshman year in college - I would  love to be that "fat" right now!  What a distorted mind I have had, for so long! 
I still find myself not realizing how different my body is at this point.  I put on jeans that I wore 3 months ago and they fall off - literally, I have a few pairs that I can actually pull off without undoing the buttons and zippers - probably time to get rid of them!  I was able to put on some work pants the other day that I have not been able to wear in several years and they fit, they are not snug, they fit.  I am still adjusting to seeing the new person I am becoming.  It's as if my head and eyes are not connected - I know I have lost the weight and some days I can actually see it, but there are still those days and moments when I see the person I was 38 pounds ago.  She is not a bad person, just different, and that's okay.  When I started this journey I knew that I needed to change what was going on, on the inside and the outside.  I am working on the physical part pretty intensely and I can feel the mental side of it coming along as the weeks go on. 
I started the running clinic last weekend.  The first class was short - introductions (who are you, why are you here and what do you want to accomplish), figuring out times for practice runs, talked a little bit about what to wear in the cold and then we headed out in the cold for a run!  Missy and I dressed warmly and were ready for the cold - and we did great!  It was a 20 minute run - the method that the Running Room teaches is the 10 and 1.  10 minutes of running, 1 minute brisk walking - that is the goal for the end of this Learn to Run program.  For the first week, we did one minute run, one minute walking for 20 minutes.  Not really sure exactly how far we ran/walked but it was not as bad as I had envisioned.  They encourage you to stay at a conversational pace - and Missy and I were able to talk to each other the whole time so I think we did great at that part, considering neither one of us usually talks when we run.  It's going to be hard for me to get to the practice runs in Maple Grove - with my work schedule, picking the girls up, etc, etc.  So, I have decided if I am able to get 2-3 runs in on my own during the week I am good.  I went for my first "on my own" run yesterday at lunch time.  I went out for about 20 minutes - it was tough.  It had snowed on Monday and much of Monday night so there was fresh snow to contend with - my legs got quite the workout making sure I didn't fall and hurt myself!   But, I did it and I plan on doing it again Friday and Saturday.  I have to miss our actual class on Saturday morning but plan to get a run in later in the day. 
I am attending a really cool event on Saturday morning.  Jen, over at PriorFatGirl is holding her third PFG event.  I am very excited to hear the speakers, meet some people who have been on, currently are on, and those just starting on this healthiness journey, and learn some new tips to help with my continuing weight loss and maintenance.  I have never gone to a blogger hosted event before so this should be a cool experience and will hopefully be an opening to new experiences. 

Have a great week "my people"!  Be well! 


Lisa said...

SO PROUD to know you, Jen! Cant wait to see you Saturday, will I even recognize you?

Sara said...

Jen, you are inspiring! Keep up the awesome job you are doing! I haven't seen you in months, so I can't wait to see the "new" you!!!
-Sara Wessel

Lynne said...

Jen - I have known you for (is it) 10 years now but I have learned so much about you reading this blog. We really never know what is going on in someone's head. I am so glad you are finding ways to feel good about the AMAZING woman you are. We are very proud of your goals and hard work. We love you.

Anonymous said...

i love it!@!! "my peoplE" loving the blog jen--i think it helps those that read it--and definitely helps you !! its awesome---and i totallyknow what you mean--getting the eyes,and head to connect with reality-.its tough even 4 yrs later for me at times--but most of the time--i "get it"--and know that its all worth it. but yes-many days when i would love to say "i quit!". hang in there-looking forward to seeing and reading your progress ! love ya -jeanne