Wednesday, December 29, 2010

A Game of Inches...

Well, I am behind. I took an unscheduled break from writing over the holiday. I have a few things to report.

Last week at my weigh in I lost 2.6 pounds! That meant that I had lost 33.6 pounds total for 13 weeks - totally awesome and so happy! This last week was good and tough all at the same time. I really concentrated on what I was eating - not hanging out around food as to avoid the mindless eating and I actually feel pretty good about how I did over the holiday weekend. Except...I did not work out like I had planned on, I only got a couple of workouts in last week and they just weren't even up to par. There was so much going on and there were so many late nights that getting up at 5:30 to work out was the furthest thing from my mind. Well, it wasn't really the furthest thing, because I did think about it A LOT. I could feel the lack of exercise zapping my energy and making me feel crummy. Don't worry, I have resolved to get back on track this week with the workouts.
Today at my weigh in I was down another 1.6 pounds - which on a normal week I may have been a little bummed about but considering it was Christmas, I didn't work out much and I still ate food - I was A-OKAY with that loss. My total weight loss is now at 35.2 pounds! I have lost 35 pounds in 14 weeks - it's crazy, I can hardly believe it.

Back to the game of inches. So, yes, I have lost 35 pounds but I have also lost some inches - most of which I attribute to Jillian Michaels! I have lost a total of 14 inches from my body in 14 weeks. Seriously - 14 inches! I have lost 5 inches from waist and 4 inches from my chest - no wonder my clothes don't fit anymore!

My clothes have really gotten big on me, there are many pairs of jeans, work pants, and shirts that I have had to put aside and not wear anymore because they just look down right FUNNY when I do wear them. Typically when I have lost weight I haven't usually gotten rid of clothes, which my husband can attest to, there are bins and bins of clothes in our storage area!!! But this time I have committed to get rid of those clothes - a few months ago I gave away 4 VERY large bags to Goodwill. This time when I collect things that are too big I may actually bring them to Clothes Mentor - I have a lot of nice things that are very gently used so if I can also get a couple of bucks for them and maybe buy a couple of pieces for the interim that would be nice.
Last Thursday I had a Non-Scale Victory (NSV) and I want to share it with you. My friend Missy and I went shopping - she graciously volunteered to come with me jean shopping. Our first stop was at Lane Bryant - where I have shopped pretty much exclusively for many years, simply because I HAD to. I tried on a few pairs and the best part was that the pair that was my favorite were actually TOO BIG! Missy convinced me that I should go to The Gap and see what they have - she is much more knowledgeable when it comes to "mainstream" retailers so I trusted her. We went down to The Gap and started grabbing jeans, I wasn't sure what size I would be able to wear so we grabbed a couple different sizes just in case. If you are familiar with Gap jeans styles, the Long and Lean were the ones I was most optimistic about. I had grabbed the biggest size they had and put those on - I came out and Missy and the girl working both told me immediately that I needed a smaller size! It was great! So, they brought me the next size, I put them on and OMG! They are the best jeans I have ever put on - in my life!!! So, you might be wondering - "did she buy them?" You are darn skippy I bought them! I have never been more happy to buy a pair of jeans at full price in my whole life! So, that was my NSV last week - I bought a pair of jeans at The Gap, and not the biggest size they have either!

I am really hoping to be able to report an NSV every week - not just about being able to buy a new pair of jeans, but more importantly about being able to recognize the things that I am doing that are making the difference.

Happy New Year friends - I am very much looking forward to 2011 and the healthiness that abounds!

Monday, December 20, 2010

Elves, Singing Trees and Santa - Oh My!

My mom, brother and sister in law took the kids to Macy's Downtown on Sunday.  Rob and I had taken Zoe when she was a year old and we all enjoyed it so we thought it would be good to get the girls down there this year.  Alas, Rob had to work so he was not able to join us - which is an unfortunate but familiar theme for us! 
The kids had a great time (so did us adults!) and we all got to see Santa too!  They run a tight ship there with the Santa process and we waited in line for about 7 minutes - no kidding!  Last year, my mom and I waited at EP Mall for over an hour with a wired two year old and a hungry 6 month old - never again!!! 
I am going to document our adventure in pictures rather than tell you all about it - you really need to see it to believe it! 

A Day in the Life of an Elf - Macy's 8th Floor - 2010

Friday, December 17, 2010

Weigh in (late again) Wednesday! 12/15/2010

Well, hello there!  Life has been crazy getting ready for the holidays and finishing up the quarter at work on the right end of our quota so I am a little late posting this week. 

Weigh in went well this week - I lost another 1.6 pounds this week and have reached another milestone!  I have officially dropped 30.8 pounds from this body of mine!  It feels so great!  I really would like to get to the 35 pound mark by the end of the year - but with the holidays in full swing starting this weekend I will be realistic and settle for another three pounds before the end of the year - that is two more weigh ins and I think it is pretty doable.  And I am setting a personal goal for myself to workout at least 5 days a week for the rest of the year - I was doing really well with the 7 days a week when I was doing the 30 Day Shred but with everything else going on I am cutting myself a little slack!  At the first of the year I am planning on stepping up the workouts a notch to make sure this weight keeps coming off! 

We had our holiday dinner at work last night.  We have a smaller team so we are able to go out and actually spend some time chatting.  It was nice to be out and enjoying some adult time - I don't do that nearly enough.  I had a wonderful Black Bean Veggie Burger - it was so good!  I even splurged and had a couple of beers - I forgot how I miss those!  This was the last holiday dinner with our team being led by our current boss - we will be getting a new boss in January.  This has really bummed me out - I have loved working with my boss for that last 4 years and I will miss getting to work with him on a daily basis - fortunately he is not leaving the company so I will still get to see him and plan to use him as a mentor now that I don't actually report to him!  The prospect of a new boss is daunting but I am starting to get used to the idea - change can be good.  Do you think if I chant that over and over I will start to believe it!?!?!

We have a busy weekend ahead of us.  Two Christmas gatherings tomorrow - all with family - it will be a great time.  The girls will get to be with their cousins all day - they will love that!  And then on Sunday, my mom, brother, sister in law and nephew are going to go downtown to see the Elves at Macy's.  We took Zoe when she was a year old and I am certain that both girls will get a kick out of it this year - who knows we may actually stop and see the big guy with the white beard too! 

Have a great weekend and keep making those healthy choices! 

Friday, December 10, 2010

Weigh in Wednesday! 12/8/2010

The end of week 11 brought another 2.4 pounds lost - gone forever!  My grand total of weight loss in 11 weeks is 29.2 pounds!  So close to that 30 pound mark - next week for sure!  I had a great week with exercise and food.  There was a day in there when I had some issues with food - thank goodness I have such a great support network around me and was able to get through it unscathed.  There will always be those days when the tray of cookies, pan of brownies, etc taunts you and calls your name - it's all about how you handle the challenge.  So far, I am pretty proud of the way I have handled the challenges. 

I have officially completed the 30 Day Shred with Jillian Michaels!  I am really enjoying the workouts and have been doing Level 3 for about a week now and really feel the challenge and can feel myself getting stronger.  During the 30 days I was doing the workout every day I lost 13.8 pounds - I have not taken my measurements yet again but I have a feeling those are really going to tell the story.  I will be sure to update on those soon as well - I am pretty curious about that too.  I know that I have lost inches simply because of the way my clothes fit - or don't fit for that matter.  I have a few pair of jeans that can be taken off without actually unbuttoning or unzipping them - pretty ridiculous - time to clean out the closets again!  I am really looking forward to going shopping some day soon and trying on new clothes and finding out what size I am right now.  I have a good idea just based on things I am able to wear in my own closet but I really look forward to walking in to a store (and not a big girl store) and grabbing something off the rack, taking it to the fitting room, putting it on and having it FIT!  Oh, it's the little things in life! 

Doing the Shred has really given me focus - to not just make this about what I need to cut out of my life but also what I need to include in my life.  I am starting to realize that it's okay to take some time for me and to make myself a priority.  If I do these things for myself the trickle down effect for the people around me is inevitable.  I am feeling good about what I am doing, feeling good about what I see in the mirror (it's been much too long since I have been able to say that!) and feeling good about the energy and zest for life I have back. 

Thank you for all of your support - for taking time out of your day to read my blog, for leaving comments and for the continuing encouragement.  It all means more to me than I can express in writing!  Thank you, thank you, thank you! 
I am going to leave you with a picture today - Zoe and I on the carousel at the MOA on her 3rd Birthday earlier this week! 

Zoe and Mommy on the giraffe

Friday, December 3, 2010

New Weight Watchers System

Unless you have been living under a rock this week and have no access to Internet or television I am certain you have heard about Weight Watchers launching their new program this week.  As a member I was alerted to the fact that they were changing things a few weeks ago - maybe other people knew before that but that was when they started talking about it in meetings I think.  I was a little nervous - I have been doing this for two months now and I have it down pretty well - I have foods that I eat on a regular basis and I know what they "cost me" so anything that was going to change that was a little daunting. 
Monday morning when I logged on to my page on the WW website - it was all new - it recalculated my daily points, there was a new total for the weekly points allowance and most of the food I had stored in my favorites was all converted to the new PointsPlus program.  I was kind of annoyed by this - they had made it seem that we wouldn't need to start doing anything differently until our weigh in and meeting day - which for me is Wednesday.  That meant for me it was going to be almost three days on the "new" plan before I went to a meeting and heard from my leader!  So, instead of panicking, we decided to go to the meeting on Monday at lunch time instead of waiting.  I figured if the tools that I use on a daily basis to be successful at this program have already changed - I need to know what I am doing - and I need to know NOW!

We went to the meeting - note to self - do not go on Mondays anymore - the leader on Mon is CRAZY!  I like our subdued leader that we have on Wed much better.  But, we were able to gather much of the info we needed to start the week off right and not feel like the rug was pulled out from under us.
I think if they ask for feedback at the meetings as to how the roll out went my only comment would be that I didn't like being "forced" to change everything to the new system right away.  It would have been nice if they had made it optional to switch on your meeting day instead of Monday morning.  I am certain that the technology people at WW surely could have figured out something that could have made it a manual switch instead of automatic. 

Moral of the story is I am finding the new system livable.  Sure, some of my go to foods have a higher point value today than they did last week - but maybe that just means they don't need to be a go to food anymore.  I really like that I can have fruit and most veggies for Zero points and not have to worry about what I can't have because I had them. 

I look forward to seeing what the changes are going to do for my weight loss and continuing my success.  I feel like this new program is going to be the catalyst that I needed to really ramp up my nutrition and force me to continue to make the right choices! 

I am going to be positive and face this new program head on! 

Thursday, December 2, 2010

To Share or Not To Share

That has become the question!  I have been posting Shred updates on my Facebook and Twitter accounts but I have not mentioned on those sites publicly that I have joined weight watchers and the weight I have lost.  I am not really sure why, I think mostly because it feels weird to post so publicly information that not all people necessarily want to know or care to know.  I already feel like I drive people nuts with my almost daily posts about the Shred - but I like doing it because it keeps me honest - it feels as if I didn't post for a few days that people might mention something - they may not, but what if they did!!!  This way there is no confusion - I am doing it and telling people about it via social media. 

I have friends that write blogs and they post links to them on Facebook when they have uploaded a new post - which I really appreciate because then I know to go over and take a look.  But they are writers and I am not.  But, I have been pondering doing the same thing.  I can probably count on my one hand how many know that I am writing this blog and on three fingers could name the people that are actually reading it!!!!  I didn't start this in hopes of driving people to a site to read all about my adventures with my kids - but now that it has evolved in to more of a chronicle of my healthiness journey it seems maybe there might be more interest.  But, the thought of a bunch of people reading this kind of scares - I can't lie.  And I don't really write to an audience - well, I guess I sort of do - I write as if I am talking to this group of people who are on the edge of their seats waiting for the next post from me - but in reality I know that is not the case it's just the way I like to tell my story.  Nerd...I know! 

I think about my parents reading it and wonder what they would think - especially with my dad being a writer - he would probably faint at some of my grammar usage, etc - but the nice thing is he would not tell me, he's nicer than that!  But I also think it may be a good way for the people in my life to really know how I am feeling - obviously the people close to me know I am losing weight - I tend to remind them a lot!  It's something that I am proud of - I am working hard and I love that people notice and tell me how great I look - that is pure motivation to keep going! 

My nagging thought on the whole subject is that maybe I just need to put myself out there and tell the masses about what I am doing and let them decide - no one has to read it or even be interested - but if ONE single human being wrote my musings and decided that they were ready to make a change because of what they read here, well, to me that would be worth it, right?  Right! 

So, when I hit publish on this post I am going to go over to Facebook and link for the first time to my personal blog.  For better or for worse this is me and right now I am feeling pretty good about who that person is so why not share her and possibly gain some more inspiration to keep going and to fight the good fight! 

Zoe and I on the carousel at MOA
 Wish me luck! 

Take that Thanksgiving!

So, I weighed in yesterday.  I went to a different meeting because I was home nursing a headache but still wanted to weigh in on my normal day.  This different meeting is held in a church and I am not a big fan of that set up but it wasn't horrible.  You want to know why it wasn't horrible?  I am going to tell you - it's because I lose 4.6 pounds!  Yes, I lost 4.6 pounds in a week that consisted of the Thanksgiving holiday - how awesome is that!  Pretty awesome, in case you weren't sure!  I think I can credit my success this week to not giving up on my workouts even though I had the day off of work for four days in a row - I treated my workouts like normal - got up in the AM and worked out - a couple of those days Zoe actually got up and did "exercises" with me.  She is so cute!  And I was very conscious of what I was putting in my mouth - I ate a good breakfast and snack before we went to my aunt's house for Thanksgiving dinner.  I had a good meal, I filled half of my plate with the yummy salad I brought and then made sure I got some of my grandma's sweet potatoes - cause they are delish and ate a little of some other things I wanted.  We even went to Rob's parents house and "ate" again later on!  But I only took a few things and very small portions at that.  And then I didn't eat again for the rest of the night - I was full, comfortably full.  And proud.  Proud that I didn't go overboard just because I could. 

So, if you are keeping track - I have now lost 26.8 pounds in 10 weeks!  And I did some of my measurements last night and I have taken off 6 inches from waist!  It's incredible - I feel so good, I have more energy and I really feel good about the decisions I have been making for the two months.  I don't feel deprived, as if I am missing something because I choose not to eat certain things - that has been the biggest switch for me.  I have removed those trigger foods (as much as possible) and I do treat myself occasionally.  I have also attempted to virtually eliminate soda from my life as well.  I now will have 1-3 Diet Mt Dews A WEEK!!!  I used to have at least one a day people - for me that is huge progress! 

Take that Thanksgiving - and bring on Christmas! 

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Weigh In Wednesday! 11/24/2010

Well this was supposed to be a big week for me and I guess it kind of was.  I had made a personal goal to lose 23 pounds by Thanksgiving week.  Well, I lost weight this week - 1.8 pounds to be exact - but I was .8 pounds shy of the 23 total that I wanted to get to.  My first reaction on seeing what I lost was not the typical reaction I have had over the last 9 weeks.  I was disappointed - yes, you read that right, I was disappointed that I only lost 1.8 pounds!  I was so focused on making it to this total, this goal that I had set for myself that I couldn't be happy that I had just lost 1.8 pounds.  So, I am now down 22.2 pounds in 9 weeks - and that is awesome and I am proud of that.  It took me a little while to realize how stupid I was being. 
I met Zoe at school today for a Thanksgiving lunch and the minute I saw her face the fact that I had missed my goal by .8 pounds was quickly forgotten.  I was brought back to reality by an almost three year old - I find that happening to me more often these days!  Her smile and kisses reminded me of the reason I started this healthiness journey in the first place - the bazillion years that I want to spend with my daughters and family as a healthy mom.  I know you aren't supposed to say that you want to lose weight and get healthy for other people - you should be doing it for yourself - but honestly if I don't get healthy it will be my children who will bear the brunt of that.  So, I am doing this for myself but ultimately my children and the rest of my family and friends will benefit as well. 

I know I should probably be worried about the holiday and the eating that happens because of it but I really am not worried at all.  I know what I have to do and plan to stick to the plan and stay on point all weekend!  I still have a long way to go and this holiday is not going to derail me!  So, I will be up first thing tomorrow morning and I will do the Shred before the girls and I settle in to watch the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade! 

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving holiday! 


So, I wanted to write this profound entry about all of the things I am thankful for this year!  Well, I have recently discovered I am not that profound - who knew! 

There are your typical things that I am thankful for - and not just this week because it is Thanksgiving, but I am thankful for these things all day, every day - my loving & supportive husband, my adoring and loveable two girls, my parents, my inlaws, my brother and his family, my husbands siblings and their families, and all of my wonderful and awesome friends and extended family!

There are a few other things I would like to throw in to that list as well(some of these are not "traditional"):
  • Our home: while it is too small and we are bursting at the seams, it keeps me and my family dry, warm, cool and safe regardless what this state's crazy weather patterns throw at us.  And it is our place to gather as a family and spend time making memories!
  • MOA/Nickelodeon Universe: if you have ever seen the looks on my children's faces when they see the carousel and know they are getting to ride it - this one is self explanatory.  We have had so many fun times with our family and friends at the MOA it definitely is a great spot!
  • My Honda Element: when I purchased this vehicle a month before I found out I was pregnant with Zoe, I imagined my baby sitting in the car seat in the back and tooling around town without a care - and for the most part that is what has come true!  I would have never imagined the amount of funny conversations that Zoe and I would have on our rides to school and to pick up Ava but they honestly are some of my favorite days and times in my vehicle - if I have to be stuck in rush hour - I can't think of a better companion!  The girls have developed music interests in that truck, they have spoken new words, and we have had some good times in that truck - we "heart" our Element!
  • 30 Day Shred: Jillian Michaels is the devil of the exercise world but I honestly love her!  I have been doing the Shred for a little over two weeks and it has helped me with my weight loss and my re-energizing of my mind and body.  I feel better every time I do it and it helps me really start the day right.
  • Weight Watchers: This may sound funny but I really am thankful for this company - yes, they take my money every month so I can come to their office and sit in a meeting once a week and use their online tools.  However, the leaders and online tools have really helped me in my healthiness journey and I know I was not able to do it on my own so for that I am grateful to all of them. 
  • The numerous blogs that I read on a regular basis: There are a select few blogs that I tune in to regularly, they are inspirational, they are relateable, and they make me feel human!  The whole blogging industry has been quite a phenomenon the last couple of years, but I seriously enjoy it and have loved learning about new things, being inspired to taking the first step on my healthiness journey, and remembering that there are people in this world that have so many difficult things going on and they continue to live and persevere! 

So, there are a few of the things that I wanted to give the extra shout out to this year!  I am so blessed in this world, I have a beautiful family, healthy children and wonderful friends and family! 
Please be sure to take a moment and tell the people in your life how much you love them and appreciate them!  Life is short, I have to remind myself of that every day, stop and take a moment to let it all soak in! 

Have a happy Thanksgiving holiday!

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Weigh In Wednesday!

Another week in the books - they seem to be going faster - especially since it's dark before I even LEAVE work at night! 
I lost 1.8 pounds this week - which really isn't my favorite part - my favorite part is that I am officially at the 20 pound mark! 
8 weeks = 20.4 pounds lost!

Starting last Monday (8th) I started doing the 30 Day Shred.  I have done it 10 days in a row now (including today, Thursday).  Today was my first day bumping up to the Level 2 workout.  I was hesitant because I didn't really know if I was ready to take that step, I had toyed with the idea of just upping my hand weights in Level 1.  But, my friends on Facebook encouraged me to just go for it and I did!  I am really glad that I did - it was more intense but it incorporated some new exercises and it was kind of nice to have a change of pace.  Level 2 brings with it - walking push ups (which I actually did) and planks!  I really am proud of myself, I have gotten up every morning, early, to work out before I go to work for the day.  It makes the rest of my day go so much better, I have more energy and I don't have to stress about when I am going to get some movement in for the day!

My eating is still going well.  I have tried some new recipes when cooking at home - trying to break out of the frozen meal syndrome.  It's nice to have meals all packaged and pretty and spelling out to me exactly what it means toward my points goal for the day - but the chemicals, etc in those processed meals can be frightening.  I have started thinking more about how I can incorporate real, filling foods in to my diet - so we'll see how that goes!  One of the blogs I follow is actually trying the "living clean" eating plan so it will be interesting to see what kinds of things she comes up with and how the clean eating makes her feel, etc and if I can take some of her experiences and try them as well. 

So, I am officially in week 9 of WW, tomorrow is Day 11 of the 30 Day Shred and it's FRIDAY!  Hello weekend!  I am getting my hair cut and colored on Saturday morning and I am beyond excited - I get a new do and get to spend time with my adorably pregnant friend who is also my stylist!  Bonus! 

I have a personal goal coming up next week - I wanted to lose 23 pounds by Thanksgiving - I need to lose 2.6 pounds this week in order to make that happen!  Wish me luck!!

Take care and Be well!

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Check in

Another great week on the scale - I could seriously get used to this!  I lost 3.2 pounds this week, bringing my total for 7 weeks to 18.8 pounds.  I am so close to that coveted 20 pound mark I can taste it! 

When I started this journey I never really sat down and put to paper what my goals were for this.  I knew in my head the weight I wanted to try to lose but didn't really have anything really set in stone as to how I was going to get there.  I read a few healthiness journey blogs and they all seem to have the same theme - they had a goal, and they had mini goals along the way to achieving the big prize.  So, i have decided it is time for me to articulate my goals, get them in writing and check back along the way to make sure I am meeting them.

Short term Goals:
1. Lose 23 pounds by Thanksgiving.
2. Maintain my weight loss through the Thanksgiving holiday.
3. Get active on a daily basis
4. Lose 30 pounds by Christmas holiday
5. Maintain my weight loss through the Christmas holiday
6. Lose 40 pounds by Valentine's Day
7. Stay active - every day, do something

They are not outrageous, nothing fancy, just some milestones that I would like to stay on pace to be able to hit.  After the first of the year I will add some more based on where I am after the Christmas holiday!

I have not felt this good about my health, my body and the way I look in a really long time!  I know that these changes are going to benefit me but I know the ones who are really going to benefit are my girls.  I want them to see a healthy, fit mom that can play with them and chase them around the yard - not a mom who is overweight and doesn't have the energy to keep up with them.  So, as much as I am doing this for myself, my girls are never far from my mind. 

I started reading this blog called PriorFatGirl about two weeks ago.  One of my friends knows this gal, they workout together, attend blogging events together, etc and she had linked to her site so I decided to check it out.  Well, literally for two weeks every time I was on the web I was reading her blog - I started from the beginning and have finally caught up to the present on Monday.  This girl is amazing, she has lost nearly 100 pounds in two years, she has maintained that weight loss for well over a year and she is inspiring!  She is holding a PriorFatGirl event in January and I am going to do everything I can to make sure I am in attendance.  The support and community that she has gained through her journey is really remarkable and it's a true testament that we can do this, the good old fashioned hard way - eating right and moving more!  Thanks Jen (PFG) for the insight, inspiration and motivation! 

Be well!

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Weigh in (kind of late) and week recap! Can you say Shred?!?!

Okay - this post is a little late considering tomorrow is already Wednesday again and I will be weighing in again tomorrow!  But, I did lose another pound last week - which was a bummer and a blessing all at the same time - I wished it had been more but I had a girls night on Friday and had some adult beverages which are not usually in my diet so a one pound loss was Great!
After last week's loss I am now officially down 15.5 pounds since starting this journey 6 weeks ago.  To say that I am happy and proud of this would be an understatement.  I really feel like I am getting a handle on my diet (what I eat, not some pill or fad diet) and being really aware of what goes in mouth all day.  I have down right mastered the concept of drinking water at this point.  Like today for example, I had 20 oz down before I even got to the office and now at noon I have already drank another 32 more!  My body has actually started to crave water - it's an amazing phenomenon.  I have only had ONE diet mt dew since Saturday night - that in itself is a miracle - evidently I don't actually NEED the caffeine! 

Last week I decided that I needed to step my game up a little bit and add some more consistent and vigorous exercise.  Several of my friends have mentioned the 30 Day Shred and up until now it really didn't sound like something I was interested in - but I thought what the heck.  My mom had the DVD so she brought it over Sunday.  I decided that Monday morning would be my first day doing the Shred.  I woke up at 6AM (if you know me this is huge), threw on my workout clothes and headed to the living room.  I knew that I would HAVE to start on level 1 and my goal was to not stop - if they don't stop on the DVD, don't stop.  It was hard - the hardest 25 minutes I have experienced lately.  But, I did NOT stop.  I felt like puking after I was done and it took awhile for me to recover but I did it.  I was proud of myself.  As I went down stairs to grab something from the laundry room I quickly realized why they call it "Shred" - my legs already hurt - 10 minutes after I was already hurting walking down the stairs!  Its okay though - it feels great and I feel like I have accomplished something for the day and it's not even 7AM yet!

Now, skip ahead to this morning!  I woke up rather sore this morning and not really feeling like I needed to do the Shred again.  So, instead I did the Biggest Loser for Wii - I worked out with my virtual Bob this morning and he did a great job of waking up my muscles and getting me a good workout and good sweat this morning.  I will be doing the Shred again tomorrow morning - stay tuned!  : )

As a family we are keeping busy.  The girls are crazy as ever but I wouldn't have it any other way.  Zoe is going to be three in a few weeks and I can hardly believe it.  She is so smart and amazes all of us every day with the things that come out of her mouth.  I love to listen at her door in the AM or at night before bed to hear her playing by herself and making up stories, characters - she has such an imagination! 
Ava is 16 months old and is all over the place.  Once she got the walking thing down she has not stopped.  Her speech is still trying to catch up - she doesn't say much but she thoroughly understands EVERYTHING we say.  She adores her big sister and is just a little love bug. 
Rob is working hard as ever - he is still working 6 days a week so we are quite limited in the time we get to spend with each other - but the time we do have I think we do a pretty good job of making it count. 
The girls are spending some time with my dad and stepmom this weekend so Rob and I are actually going on a date with some friends on Friday night to see a band.  I am so excited, live music is the one thing that I dearly miss from my younger and more care free days!  We are going to see Pert Near Sandstone at the Cabooze - bluegrass, I will definitely be earning some activity points with some dancing! 
Anyway, tomorrow is weigh in day again.  I am feeling really good about this week.  I feel like I have made some positive strides towards really making these life changes and not just about losing weight.  The losing weight part is pretty awesome but knowing that I am getting myself healthier and in return setting a good example for my kids and all the other people around me is the real victory.  Oh, and being able to pull on a pair of dress pants that I have not worn in three years and they fit, they were not tight, did not create a muffin top - yeah, that's pretty awesome too! 

Make it a wonderful day! 

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Weigh In Wednesday!

Weigh in day today! I lost 2.6 pounds this week - putting my total weight loss at 14.4 pounds in 5 weeks. I am feeling really good this week. I know I still have SO much work to do but I am feeling great about the progress I have made thus far and the choices I continue to make. My big thing right now is figuring out how to incorporate more activity and working out. I don't like making excuses but it's so hard to fit it in. I work all day outside of the house, Rob is home with our girls during the day and then I pick them up from his mom's house two nights a week, and the other days I work from home but don't have any "me" time between when I finish work and their naps, etc. So, I am thinking the only way I am going to accomplish this on a regular basis is to get my arse out of bed 30-45 minutes earlier each day to get some sort of activity in. Whether it be working out with a DVD, the wii fit, or biggest loser game, whatever. It has to happen - I can change my eating habits all I want (and believe me I have - can you say no french fries or cheeseburger in 5 weeks!) but at some point if that is all I have changed I am going to hit a plateau and stop losing. And trust me when I say this - I DO NOT WANT THAT TO HAPPEN!

So, Halloween is this weekend - I have been able to get around the "buying candy for trick or treaters" and having it be in my house by accepting my inlaws invitation to bring the girls over there again this year for trick or treating. My girls are young enough that they do not care where they are for this holiday and this makes it so I have no "extra" candy hanging out in my house after the night is over. At our meeting today we talked about having a plan for what to do with the kids candy after the night is over. Our leader mentioned that dentists buy back candy from kids and then send it overseas to the troops - OMG - what a great idea! I know Zoe would much rather have the cash to add to her every growing Dora supply anyway! Or at least that is what I am going to convince her of. We will save some of the treats for her rewards, etc - but I honestly don't want her eating anymore of that candy than I want myself eating! She is two (nearly 3) and she is built like her momma - I am going to be careful with her! And Ava is only 16 months - she does not NEED candy, nor does she even really know what it is - let's keep it that way!

So, this was a successful week - I am going to try my hardest to get some more exercise in this week to try and make an even bigger difference. Sure wish I could remember what I did differently the week I lost 7.6!!! I'll have to go back and look at my tracker from that week!

Happy Halloween everyone! If you have any ideas for sneaking little workouts in please let me know - I am open to suggestions!

Wednesday, October 20, 2010


So, Wednesday is WI day! I was very nervous for weigh in today - I had a great week last week so I was not expecting much this week but I worked hard so I was hopeful. Well, I lost NOTHING! But, I also gained NOTHING! That's right, the darn scale said the same darn thing it did last week! Major bummer! I am trying really hard to stay positive and remind myself that NO weight loss is better than a gain.

I am determined to get more activity in this week and drink more water. These are my two sticking points traditionally. I excuse exercise away all week long but this week I AM GOING TO BE ACTIVE EVERY DAY - even if just for 10-15 minutes at a time.

The weather is getting cooler here so I am starting to line up my back up plans for getting outside and walking. I got my WII fit balance board all set up last night and played a few of the balance games - boy are those harder than they look! This week I want to set up My Personal Fitness Plan on the system and start getting in a routine. I think my best bet is to get up 30 minutes earlier in the morning and get my workout done then - before anyone else in the house is awake, before I have to leave for work. If I wait until after work and after I get my girls I just don't get it done. I am tired, I have 50 other things to do and it just doesn't happen. Because lets be honest - who likes to work out at 10pm!!!

So, I didn't lose any weight this week - that's okay - I really don't feel like I did anything to sabotage weight loss this week I really think my body was just bouncing back from the big loss last week. I am okay, I am doing this and I am going to keep doing this!

Let's go week five, bring it on!

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

On the Program

I have not been writing as often as I had hoped I would.  But, I am back and hope to at least write once a week - I figure that is an attainable goal for now. 
I recently started on the Weight Watchers program.  Since college I have always been heavy, have lost weight for special occasions (my wedding, etc) and gained it back later.  I had planned to drop a bunch of weight before I had kids but that didn't really work out - however I have been able to successfully lose the weight I gained while pregnant - I was very careful during both of my pregnancies to not go overboard and didn't gain more than 20 lbs with either one of them.  So, now here I am, pleasantly plump and ready to get rid of this excess weight and be a healthier version of myself. 
Weight has been an issue for me my entire life.  Even when I was in high school and college and was really a healthy weight, exercising, playing competitive softball, etc I always thought I was huge.  I recently found a picture of me from my freshman year in college, I was wearing my softball uniform and dare I say I look - THIN!  It's hard to believe that a short year (and lots of beer and pizza) later I had gained about 15 pounds and have spiraled down from there. 
I lost about 20 pounds before Rob and I got married - I had to look great in my dress.  I was still overweight, but I wore it pretty well.  Thank goodness I am tall and have long legs!  I have since put that weight back on and am carrying probably about 10-15 more. 
I can't really pinpoint the moment that I said to myself - you need to get rid of this weight - I tell myself that ALL OF THE TIME.  My best friend asked me if I wanted to join WW with her - support each other and do it together - PERFECT, someone to hold me accountable, to go to the meetings with, etc.  I have joined WW before - lost some weight and then gave up and gained it back. 
Well, this time it's for good - I am losing this weight for good, making healthy lifestyle changes and becoming a great example for my babies.  I don't want to be the "fat mom" while they are growing up, I want to be the one that is running around with them, having fun and enjoying their youth.  And I want to be healthy and live a long life so I can be at their middle school graduations, their high school graduations, their college graduations, their weddings, be around when they have their children and be able to enjoy those grandchildren to the fullest!  All of this is not really that much to ask - this is what everyone should be doing, right?  But the simple fact is that MOST people in the US are overweight or obese.  Americans love food, there is no escaping it.  My plan is to make sure that I love the RIGHT food and make the RIGHT choices and help my daughters to make the same choices. 
I am in week four on the WW program - I weigh in on Wednesdays and go to the meeting with my best friend.  We are doing great, we are suggesting food items to one another, sharing recipes, sharing struggles, etc.  She has considerably less weight to lose than I do - but it really doesn't matter - we both need to make positive changes in our lives and that is really the most important thing - yes, we need to lose weight, but when the weight is gone, then what?  We will have our health and new lifestyles, it will be habit, it's not a diet, it's a habit!
So, my progress thus far has been motivating.  I lost 3.2 pounds the first week, I lost 1.0 pound the second week and I lost 7.6 pounds last week - that is 11.8 pounds in three weeks.  I am already noticing the change in my clothes, etc.  This weekend I cleaned out the closests, drawers, and bins I had in the attic of my "pre-pregnancy" clothes.  I was able to clear out 5 HUGE garbage bags of clothes.  Much of that was stuff in bins upstairs that I was waiting to fit in to - they are now too big and had to go.  I did not keep any "fat pants' which is what I usually do - just in case.  Nope, we are going down, down, down in the size department and I don't plan on going back. 
One of the things I look forward to is the change that will happen in my face - I can't wait to have only one chin and not always look like I am smuggling nuts in my cheeks! 
I have started getting more active and definitely have room to grow in that area, but I have started.
Here on out I will update this blog on Wednesday or Thursday with my weight loss success/failures.  Please feel free to join me!!! 

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Oh the terrible twos...

My daughter Zoe is the spitting image of me - seriously, it's really scary.  My mom found an old pic the other day of me with my brother when he was a newborn - it honestly could be Zoe with Ava, that's how much we look alike.  In fact, when I posted the pic on Facebook some of my friends thought it was Zoe and Ava!  Pretty funny.  So, we have established that physically she looks like me, now comes the hard part.  Does she act like me too????  There are days when I would say, oh yes, she is my sweet, smart, caring little girl and I am proud to take credit.  And then there are days like this last Thursday night when I took her and Ava in to Cub to grab a few things - most notably a gallon of milk (had to have it).  I don't typically do Cub or Target with the two of them when it is just me, it's just not worth it, I tend to get that kind of shopping done during lunch or on the weekend, or on the rare occasions when Rob and I are home together.  Well, on this night I decided I would let the two of them sit in one of those carts that are shaped like a car and have the two steering wheels - fun, right?  My first complaint is that they make those carts EXTRA LONG - it seriously felt like the cart was twice as long as a normal one!  We trudged on, they were having fun.  So, we get half way through the store, things are going pretty well and then it happened, she lost it, completely lost it!  I had let her hold on to the box of cereal, I calmly explained to her that she needed to keep the box closed until we got home.  After the third time having to tell her to stop tearing at the box top, I took it away - not sure what I was thinking!  She went crazy, screaming, crying and yelling at me at the top of her lungs.  I was nearly done so I just let her scream and cry and I ignored her while I grabbed the last couple of things on my list.  I got the typical stares from people - this one woman in particular just kept looking at us - as if Zoe would magically stop crying if she gave me the stink eye long enough - it was so ridiculous but I kept my cool and didn't say anything to her, even though I wanted to really badly! 
Zoe continued to cry through the checkout lane - not as loudly as in the beginning but enough to make the cashier check us out quite quickly - which I really appreciated! 
I get our stuff bagged up, get it back in the cart and we are out of there - I couldn't get out of there fast enough, I was proud of myself for keeping my cool but I really did want to explode, not so much because I was embarrassed (she's two and I have a 9 month old, this will happen to me repeatedly from here on out) but because I was frustrated with myself and the fact that nothing I did would calm her down and it felt very out of control and that is not a feeling I enjoy. 
For those experienced moms out there what I am about to tell you next will not be much of a surprise.  The moment the cart hit the pavement outside - she was perfectly fine, no crying, no screaming - just driving and laughing with her sister!!!  So irritating! 
We did have another minor freak out when it was time to get out of the cart and in to the car, but overall it was pretty minor in comparison with the in store shenanigans. 
So here is my question or nagging thought from this experience - where did I go wrong?  At what point in our adventure did I make the wrong call(s)?  Was it when I decided to let them get in that stupid race car cart?  But really with two of them I don't have many other options - Zoe is still too young to let her walk through the store (unless Rob is there too).  Was it when I gave in and let her hold the dang box of Cheerios, was it when I took said box of Cheerios away because she kept attempting to open them despite my pleas to stop?  Should I have abanonded our cart of food and just taken them out of the store?  I don't really think so in this case because I just don't think she was being "that" bad.   I just don't know.  It's so funny how one experience at the grocery store can send you in to such a tailspin and have you doubting such insignificant choices - but here I am! 

Maybe tomorrow I will tell the story of how she has started to kick and push her baby sister when she gets too close to her toys or to her, period!  Needless to say, she has been spending a lot of time in timeout the last few days! 

Monday, February 1, 2010

Where has the time gone?

So back in October I debated whether I should go back and try to chronicle the time I had missed while I was busy and not getting on to blog or if I should just start over.  Well, now it has been a year since a real blog post about anything new so I guess I will just start over. Which is fine, it has to be right, cause you can't go back and change it!
My second baby girl Ava was born on June 29, 2009 and it seems my world has not stopped since she has arrived.  I knew that adding a second child to our lives would be a big deal but I had no idea what to expect.  When people find out that Ava and Zoe are 18 months apart the most popular response is: "oh you must have your hands full!" or my other favorite: "you sure must be busy".  And both of those statements are more true than I would like to admit most days.  But there are things that snap you back to reality and help you realize that as busy as you are - you need to slow down and cherish every moment you have. 

Yesterday I discovered that a friend of mine from college - we played softball together one season at SSU - passed away after a very long and hard fought battle with cancer.  I have not spoken to or even seen (that I recall right now) Tina in almost 13 years.  I graduated from SSU in 1997 and have only been back twice.  And I probably saw her that first year I came back for Homecoming but other than that - haven't seen her.  Last night when I discovered that she had died and that she had been ill for quite a bit I found her Caring Bridge site and read it all.  Her sister Amy did a remarkable job updating the site from May 2009 until Friday when Tina passed.  After I finished reading through the journal that chronicled Tina's last 8-9 months I started reading through the comments that others had left - both before she passed and after.  What an impact that girl had on so many people.  I have a pretty good feeling that Tina knew how many people loved her and supported her and her family through all of this.  I was surprised last night about how affected I was by her passing when it had been so long since I had seen her or even thought about her.  I was looking through a friends pictures on FB (she had posted a bunch from school with Tina in them) and I just found myself crying uncontrollably.  I am so sad for her family and friends that were so lucky to have spent the last 13+ years enjoying her and supporting her through her battle.  I remember Tina, I remember her smile, I remember her big ponytail of curly hair, her bolt of lightening speed around the base paths and I just remember her being a really great person.  She smiled ALL OF THE TIME - she would attempt to make this face to show she was mad about something and she couldn't do it - she couldn't be grumpy or scowl ever. 
I suppose I find myself reflecting during this time of sadness, its comforting knowing that all of Tina's family and friends are together today and tomorrow to celebrate her life and to find comfort in one another.  They will laugh, cry and be with each other and tell stories and recall all of the good times and know that Tina is now in Heaven where she is free from pain and watching over all of us.  Rest in peace Tina - it was a pleasure knowing you and an honor to have been your teammate on the field! 

So, my life is busy, I work full time, I parent full time, I am a wife full time, I am a daughter full time, I am a sister full time, and from now I will count those blessings full time!  When I have stepped on what seems like the 150th lego in a half hour, I have washed the 3rd load of laundry in one night, I have changed the 4th poopy diaper of the day - I will pause and give thanks that I have the ability to experience all of these things.  I will give thanks that I am healthy, my children are healthy, my husband is healthy, my parents and in laws are healthy, my siblings (real and inlaws) are healthy, my nephews and nieces are healthy, and I will say extra prayers for those in my life that aren't healthy and hope that they will be healthy soon. 

I find myself getting caught up in what I am not able to do because I am too busy or because I have the girls.  It's an easy trap for anyone but it's days like today when I am snapped back to reality and reminded that I really do have a great life.  I have been given a great gift - I am a mother of two beautiful little girls that depend on me and even on my worst day there are many people out there that would trade with me in a blink of an eye.