Sunday, September 21, 2008

Liz Goodman Logelin Memorial 5K Walk/Run

Today was the first annual Liz Goodman Logelin Memorial 5K Walk/Run. I never knew Liz and I don't even know her husband Matt, or their daughter madeline. But, I have read Matt's blog since his daughter was born and his wife tragically passed away 27 hours after giving birth. It's a sad, sad story but it also is a story with so much hope and lessons to teach. Matt chronicles his days with his daughter Madeline in his blog and he has really grabbed parenting by the horns. Most new parents I have known are always so concerned about bringing their kids out and exposing them to the world - Matt has no fear - but why would he - the worst has already happened to him - he lost the love of his life. I admire him so much - he takes Maddy to the store with him, he takes her to the park, he takes her to restaurants and does it with such confidence. I have tried to do the same thing with Zoe - she was born in Dec and it was extremely cold those first couple of months - but aside from that I am pretty comfortable taking her just about anywhere. And I guess that is part of why we both have such laid back little girls. Zoe is pretty content just about anywhere - as long as she has a clean diaper, is fed and rested - she is good to go. From what I can tell - Madeline is the same way and I am certain it is because he has made a point of socializing her, instead of hiding in the house - which most people would probably not blame him for. But, as matt has often said - it's harder to be at home most times - too many memories and too quiet.

So, this weekend marked the first annual walk in memory of Liz. I was so excited to be able to be a part of this event. The walk was held at Lake Calhoun - and Matt and maddy flew in from LA this weekend to participate with their families. I recruited Missy and Ellie to walk with Zoe and I. When we arrived at the Lake there were a lot of people there already - we were able to spot them pretty easily as the majority were wearing pink in honor of Liz's favorite color.

I spotted matt and maddy right away as Matt was holding Maddy above his head as he does quite often in the photos he shares on the blog. She was even cuter in person, but appeared much smaller than she does in photos.

It was a little overwhelming at first - I wasn't sure if I should go up and introduce myself, let him know I had a little gift for him and Madeline or just remain anonymous as I have done thus far. Just as I was contemplating this in my head - Gma Candee (Liz's mother) came over and said hello and commented on Zoe's GOA onesie. She was so nice - she has a great laugh! She fawned over Zoe for a couple of minutes and I decided to just ask her what I should do with the gift I brought - I told her what it was and she thought it was a good idea for me to go put it in the diaper bag so he could find it later. I now know first hand where Liz got her great spirit from - what an awesome lady! I am so glad that she came over and said hello - that meant a lot!

So, I put the gift in the diaper bag and then decided to go over and say hello to Matt and let him know it was there. I brought Zoe over and we said hello, said a quick hello to maddy and that was that. We were about to start the walk so I didn't want to take too much of his time and I still have a hard time with the whole face to face thing. It's strange when you read someone's blog for so long and then you have the opportunity to meet them - you would have thought I would be dying to talk to him and hold his baby - much like most of the other women there, but I just still don't feel like its my place. I can't quite put my finger on it because I don't think there is anything wrong with the others that have become his friends through all of this but for me I just haven't been able to take that step. Maybe some day - maybe next year at the walk after some time has passed it may feel more natural.

It was a beautiful day in Mpls today and a great day for a walk to honor such a beautiful woman. I feel fortunate to have been able to be a part of the day and to have seen some of Liz and Matt's family and friends. We look forward to participating again next year when I am certain that it will be an even larger event!

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